exams are over! can finally breath a sigh or relieve.. currently im over in bintulu, sarawak attending my sister-in-law's side of the wedding dinner. feel happy for them ^^ but i dun really feel happy for myself.. =/ i look around.. everyone is so happy. my brother and sister in law.. or my most of my frens.. with their partners and all. but for me.. i am just seriously feeling empty at times.. all these thoughts isnt just for the sake of having a gf or feeling desperate.. its just the empty and hollow feeling.. one that i have been feeling for quite some time already.. no hands to hold.. no arms to rest on.. no one to hug.. to lie and sleep beside.. no face to see while waking up.. just feeling drained.. and tired.. and empty.. i wonder when i'll be filled up.. with all the emotions again.. i want a shoulder to lie on.. i want someone to hug while falling asleep together.. i want that wonderful feeling of opening ur eyes in the morning and the 1st thing u will see is that someone.. right next to u..

guess i shdnt be feeling so emo.. its my brother's wedding..! i shd be happy.. cos eventually it'll be my turn! i really want to see that day come.. kind of day dreaming.. considering the fact tt i dun even hv a gf.. but ya.. i really want that..


"Who doesn't long for someone to hold..
Who knows how to love you without being told..
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own..
If there's a soulmate for everyone..."

random thought of the day..!

"fate only brings you up to a certain point.. whatever happens next is all in your own hands."


"if its meant to be.. den its meant to be.." often i hear ppl say this sentance.. well.. its true in a certain way.. but i kinda disagree with it as well. bcos like the quote above.. i believe fate.. or yuan fen.. can only create chanced meetings or such.. bringing u right in front of maybe the person u like.. or maybe some opportunity that might improve ur life.. BUT.. in order for it to happen.. u have to do something about it.. its kinda like seeing something.. maybe money on the floor.. and wondering if ur gonna pick it up. its nv gonna get blown by the wind n smack u right in the face right..? its all up to the person to pick it up or not.. there are many times whereby ppl blame alot of stuffs on fate.. saying y things that happen to others doesnt happen to them as well.. why this why that.. well.. i guess tts bcos they didnt "pick it up" so to speak.. to take matters into thier own hands when its right in front of them..

fate.. its a very easy target for ppl to blame their misgivings or misfortunes on.. and i think thats very unfair.. fate is very wu gu de.. so try to cut fate some slack alright..? haha.. cos if u think about it.. fate is happening everyday to everyone out there.. its working really hard.. so do try to appreciate it.. cos im sure tt the rewards will certainly mean a whole lot to everyone doing so.. ^^